The truth...

Psalms 19:14

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight,

O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Here as of late, all of you know that God has been working in my heart. Today, I have spent much of my morning praying as I go. I'm really struggling with my temper right now. That is for MANY reasons, but in my heart, I know that it is wrong. Anger is OK if IT IS RIGHTEOUS and mine is becoming bitter right now. So, I have been praying through my day trying to focus on this. Then as I was loading the washer today, God spoke to my heart. The scripture above is what He showed me. I dwell on things. I dwell on the past. I dwell on the kids behaviours. I dwell on my hurts. I dwell on words that have been spoken in anger. I dwell on mistakes. The meditations of my heart are NOT pleasing in his sight! At all! Not only that, but the meditations of my heart are directly affecting the words of my mouth! So, today, this scripture is my prayer. May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight today God! Amen!

pieces...

Some times, it feels like life is a blank puzzle... you have to blindly put the pieces together where they fit and then when the puzzle is all finished... you see the big picture. I kind of feel like this is the way our lives have been. We walked through the horrid scare of mito. Wondering day by day if Joey would make it or if Abby would go backwards. Then God decided to move with a touch of healing and new medical care. Why? I don't know. Am I grateful? You better believe it. Now, He begins to work on our hearts. I look at every vessel ever used in the Bible. They have been through it in some form or another. Broken and totally reliant on God alone... Today, I sit and work on my puzzle pieces of life... we are working with some issues with the kids, working on what God wants from our lives, figuring out day to day what we are to be doing and who we are supposed to be in our community... and then I wonder... when I stand before God, what will my completed puzzle look like. I pray it is beautiful and I can look on it with Joy standing beside my Father in heaven as He says Well done! Just my random thought for the moment... hope it makes sense!!!

It's laundry time!!!

We are way behind on laundry! In order for us to come to church today, we have to work!!! The kids and I have been working on laundry. The holidays have put us a bit behind on our usual chores! It's been so cute watching them help! They've done awesome... so today, we will have clean clothes!!! :)

Slave driver!!!!!

Jeff's home from work and he thinks I must work!!! he he he!!! Just kidding! He and I are pitching in to put our house back into order from the holidays! My kitchen is a disaster... our living room now looks like a used toy store! So... off we go to putting things in proper place and making life feel "norm" again! Happy clean up to the Pfohl fam!

I did survive!!!!

Sweet! I did survive! It felt so good to be back in the mode of drama/miming/interpretive... whatever you want to call it! I was so nervous that tonight wouldn't' fly because of the asthma issues I have been having. But with a little help from my friendly puffer and A LOT of help from God... I made it through! I pray that God was able to speak through tonight. I certainly enjoyed just worshipping Him through obedience but also expressing my awe for him through the motions of the song! Merry Christmas to all tomorrow!!! Happy birthday JESUS!!!!!

It's christmas eve!!!!!

Well, tomorrow is Christmas! I am VERY excited and so are the kids. Abby is thrilled to be celebrating Jesus birthday. I pray that all families can lay down any issues they are having, can lay down hurts and celebrate the birth of Christ who came to set us free! When you really stop to think about Christmas, it is a day to stand in Awe. Jesus the son of God took on the form of a baby and came to Earth KNOWING full well, he was coming in order to save those that He loves... YOU AND ME!!! So, I look forward to taking some time away from the "chaos" of Christmas and thanking Jesus for all that He has done for our lives! It's an awesome day to be able to celebrate! So, curious... do any of you have any special things you do to celebrate the birth of Christ on Christmas???

Just me...

Yep, I know! Shocking! That is a picture of just me on this blog! Yeppers. I did it! I really dislike pictures of myself. If you will recall with me, I have been occasionally posting about things that are heavy on my heart, changes in my life, things God is working on me. Between here and my weight loss blog, I have been talking a lot about things within me. God is really working on my whole heart right now. I have to confess, it has been a painful toll! I'm ready for the work to be complete... but it isn't there yet. Right now, God is working on me as a person... Who I am, what I'm supposed to be, what I feel about me... Let me tell you folks, that isn't always positive. Me? I very much dislike myself most days. I battle with how I look. I struggle with how I feel physically. I battle even with how I deal with life and I feel so unworthy of being called a daughter of God. All this adds up to one thing... I have and allowed life to belittle my self esteem. God has been asking me to step up and do more and that crazy self esteem just gets in the way every single time! Tomorrow is a huge day for me. I had hoped to have lost more weight than I have before committing to this... but God has laid it on my heart that it is time. I am going to do a mime/drama tomorrow. yep. I'm VERY nervous about it. To be truthful... I would rather back out... but I'm moving forward because it's what God wants. This is part of my journey of healing. God is asking me to put more ministry back in my life and this is the area I begin. So please pray for me. This is a real step of faith for me. Big girls don't do these kinds of things and I want my heart to be in letting Jesus shine through me rather than worrying about what the dude watching things of my pant size! So... God, here I am... hands open, heart bared.... USE ME!

Sir Joey

Joey was all dressed up in his armor last night at the christmas party. we had it in one of the class rooms and he settled in to play! I couldn't resist this picture!

Christmas party...

Well, tonight we celebrate with the rest of the food pantry staff that has helped out this year to minister to our community and have a Christmas dinner together. I am very excited! I love to cook and well... here is the menu...

Veggie tray with dip
Chicken and dumplings (dumplings are even scratch... mmmm!!!!!!)
Home made Mashed potatoes with gravy
Green beans with ham
Dinner rolls
and for desert...
we are having sugar cream cake and a chocolate sugar cream cake...

Do you know what my house smells like? oh my words!!! Jeff has a drip of drool on his chin every time I see him! I don't think he'll be last in line tonight! I think he'll push his way to the front after smelling it all day!

The Spirit of Jesus...

You know, the best part of Christmas to me is loving on people. Last year, I didn't get to be much a part of that because the kids were so very sick. We were very much loved on and was so much needed at the time with all that the kids were going through... BUT, Not this year! buddy, I'm back into life in the outside world and I get to I just love to love on people! Merry Christmas every one!!!!

Christmas time....

There is certainly a buzz in the house about Christmas this year! Abby is busting at the seems!!! We let the kids open Christmas last night because it was the ONLY time until after Christmas that we had an uninterrupted night. The kids were so cute and had so much fun.

Yesterday, we painted our ornaments that we made. They are the salt/flour ornaments. Abby's picture didn't turn out... no flash on my camera any more... but here is a good one of bubby's. They had a blast! Today, we may consider putting our ginger bread house together!!! We have a few more activities up our sleeves!!!! :) Merry Christmas every one!! -Mindy

Long day...

Today has been a long day! Some good, some bad! Started the morning with loads of baking and cooking to get ready for the Christmas party today with staff and volunteers at the church. Made goodies to share with the staff. Then home to clean up some of the house from the mess of the cooking! Never fails you always have to clean up!!!! We got to go into Muncie to do some Christmas shopping! TONS of fun! The kids stayed here wtih Aunt Christi. I love buying the kids their presents! I can't wait to watch them open them and share the joy with them!!! Came home to lots of snuggles and hugs! Best part of my day! I love to be missed! :) For now, I'm going to bed so I can face another day with at least a little sleep! Night all! -Mindy

Thank you Jesus!

As I requested before, I asked you all to go over and visit Miahna now I'm asking you to do it again1 T hey have posted beautiful pictures of her alert and the doctors have removed her from the ventilator! I'm crying tears of joy after seeing the pictures!!! Please stop in and praise Jesus with them!!! Again... you can go here to see her beautiful little face! Thank you God for His touch in little one's lives!!! -Mindy

The Teddy Bear tea...

These are from my cell. My camera is ate up and well... it isn't working most of the time! I have had no luck with cameras since my good one broke! :( Anyways, here is the teddy bear tea!

Abby coloring her picture that Mrs. Bearington gave her while waiting on tea to be served. She had juice instead!!
Pretty princess! She made this during the craft time! So much fun! We will certainly go again!

Due to craziness...

You can now follow me on a different twitter account. To your right, you can see my updates and click to follow me!!! Thanks all! -Mindy

my little photographer...

Joey found my digital and this is what I found when i found it again! LOL! He's taking up photography! What do you think??

Worth millions, right? LOL

Cookies any one???

Tomorrow, we get to bless some friends with a meal. So, I was very excited tonight to get right on preparing for that! We decorated Christmas cookies to share with them! I just love baking! Can't eat it now a days, but Jeff tried one to make sure they tasted alright! A few were a little done, but what can you say??? Merry Christmas all! -mindy

I'm twittering!!!

Well, now you can follow me on twitter! www.twitter.com/pfohlsonthego Oh, what I won't do these days!!! Ha!

A star in the making...

Joey really gets into music. He has found mommy's guitar. I think he's going to be one great musician some day!

Home School update...

Well, I wanted to update to let you all know that Home school is going well! Today, miss Abby did number matching. We drew circles counting 1- 5 on the left side and then wrote 1-5 out of order on the right side. She is a star! matched them up drawing lines with no help! She's doing well learning to recognize letters by sight and sound. She is doing very well learning to write. We practiced colors and cutting together today. She cut out colored lines and named their color. Then she used cutting and glue to make pretty flowers! She is doing awesome! I'm so excited. Mr. Joey even joined in the fun by learning the number two and coloring two ice cream cones! I'll have to get pictures soon! I'm slacking! Have a great day all! -Mindy

The rain poors down...

I'm sitting here at my desk wathcing the rain pour down outside and listening to a worship song called "It's for you." As I watch the rain fall... I realize it is really symbolic of the desire of my heart. I so am longing to see the power and love of God rain down in our lives. Not just here, but in our community. I look at the people pouring in to the pantry week after week... I look at the lives of those who are broken right here in our neighbor hoods, I see my neighbors struggling, I go to therapy and hear mom's say "I need to get you kids in church, maybe that will fix you..." I see all around desperation and a need that needs filled. Many don't know what that need is, they just know they are empty and I long to see God use my life and those in our church to pour down the rain that will refresh and restore the dry and cracked souls... So as I listen to this worship song, I say God it's for you, it's all for you! Let your presence come God and fill our lives!!! -Mindy

It's time to decorate!!!

Joey helped empty the Christmas tub and then took up inhabitance!

Miss Abby quickly took over and the fight got the tub taken away!

Our tiny little community on the piano...
Our short and fat little tree! We got it at Sickles and we just had so much fun!

Merry Christmas from the Pfohl family!

Kids connection

We had a fun time tonight at church! My parents are there doing ministry! My kids had a ball! All the kids there can't wait for tomorrow morning! Hope to see some of you there!

portrait of my life right now....

I can so relate to this lady!!! Wow! That even looks like my desk! LOL! Back to trying to put all my ducks in a row! -Mindy

Ho Ho ho!!!!

Well, Abby and Joey got to see Santa last night at the Christmas walk up town. Abby was all about it. we don't do much of the "Santa" thing but she's been getting into it more with her friends, so we are going alone! Not that we don't want them too... we just kind of decided to go with the flow and do whatever. Abby's not been very interested in Santa until this year. She sat right up there and was all smiles! I didn't get to hear what she told him, but I'm sure she had a list! Joey however was not into the whole seen! He got stiffer and stiffer the closer we got and his lap time was oh... about 5 seconds! ha! so funny! I didn't have my camera with me! :( but next time maybe!!! Well, I hope all have a had a great day! Joey is sick right now as is half the world! So, we have had a jammie day all except for running a quick errand to Wal-Mart! Have a great night all! -Mindy

Too pooped to pop...

Well, even though I'm too pooped to pop... I mustered up the energy to clean out the stove! Yep! All the little burner trays, the burners, underneath the hood of the stove! Awww... now I really am pooped! :) It's so nice to have a clean stove though!

The kids started on a new therapy schedule today. They are having therapy now at 8 a.m. on Tuesdays instead of 1:00 p.m. Let me tell you, Abby did not like this change! she hates mornings! it really has wreaked havoc on all of us as we are all three a bit more tired today! Oh well! We'll get used to it! :) =Mindy

Please pray...

Please pray for this sweet baby, Miahna. You can click that link, or you can check in on her with updates on my list of blogging friends to your right. Please pray for healing. You can also get more details at PK's Thanks all! There is nothing closer to my heart than babies and families who are struggling with medical! Let's agree for a miracle!!!! Thanks all1 -Mindy

Back to reality!

Well, we are off and running again on our busy schedule! The holidays are over. Daddy's back to work, we are headed for a recheck today on Abby's asthma and back to our usual errands! Ahhh.... the busy times of life!!!! We will be working with Tammy B. over in the food pantry! The farmland Fire department donated $500 worth of canned goods, toiletries, ect! Tammy and I CAN NOT wait to dig in and put it all away! We are excited! It's so awesome to see the community coming together to build the pantry. Donations from church families and donations from surrounding families... JUST AWESOME!!!! This month, we served well over 60 families! I'm loving getting to be a part of TOUCHING that many lives! God is just awesome! -Mindy